My oh my, how time flies. It feels like just yesterday I was deciding which collegiate letters to bedazzle on my high school graduation cap and now I am registering for my last few classes as an undergraduate college student. The questions have changed from, “Where do you want to go to school,” and “What do you want to major in,” to “What are you doing after you graduate?” Translated I hear, “What are you doing every day for the rest of your life?” Once again I look stunned and scan the air for an answer to their question. How in the world am I supposed to come up with an answer to such a question?
The truth is, I could list off many things I want to do, to change, and to be, yet, they remain protected, closed off, and safe behind closed lips as to not leak out into the vast potential of failure and doubt that swirls around me. I’ve always been told to dream big. “Never let the fear of striking out, keep you from playing the game.” I would say I do an above average job of living by this quote, but have you ever dreamed of something so big, so far out of reach that the second you dreamed it you felt defeated? Sure, it only takes one person with a clear dream and unrelinquished pursuit to make a change, but me…no no no I am not equipped.
“Oh my Lord, I am not eloquent, neither before nor after You have spoken to your servant; but I am slow of speech and slow of tongue” Exodus 4:10 (NKJV)
Does this conversation sound familiar? Maybe not these exact words, but something very similar has come out of my mouth and surely nested in my mind. Who am I, to think I could ever make a lasting impression on my generation?
Here is God’s response to Moses, “Who has made man’s mouth? Or who makes the mute, the deaf, the seeing, or the blind? Have not I, the Lord? Exodus 4:11
In other words, who is in control? Who has been in complete control this entire time? The Lord doesn’t doubt His own plans for your future. He is not fearful of making mistakes. So why do we worry about the high calling on our lives? We shouldn’t be surprised when the Lord calls us to something seemingly impossible, or when He plants a big dream in our hearts. Actually, we should anticipate it.
When God called Moses, He knew Moses was completely incapable under his own strength, but the Lord knew what was possible with just a simple, “yes.” One word. One obedient action freed a people, parted a sea to expose dry land, turned water into blood, a walking staff into a snake, and brought down a tablet of commandments that would stand the test of time and lead generations to follow. All from a man who claimed to be unequipped, but decided to give it a try.
If God has called you to it, He is going to bring you through it. God sees us in the present, he understands our fears and inhibitions, but He asks us to trust him.
“Now therefore, go, and I will be with your mouth, and teach you what to say.” Exodus 4:12
We may not think we are equipped, Moses thought the very same thing. Incredible what God can do through a willing and obedient heart. God often doesn’t hire the most qualified person for the job, but He is always faithful to equip those He calls.